Blog 98 … Integrity what is this word?

I am rather proud to say that today my morning routine went as planned. I got up, drank tea, went to the gym, meditated, walked the dog showered and dressed. That was the plan and in no particular order I managed to do it all. So That left the afternoon to be productive in other ways. I have shopped for food and this is my main accomplishment…

I rescued a Water Melon.

I saw this giant of a water melon in the local veg shop yesterday and remarked on it’s size, made a suggestion that they cut it in half and sold it separately. But they had tried that with a former watermelon and it had ended up going into the bin.

Now in our local co-op about 10 tiny pieces in a plastic container are £2 – so really this particular specimen is a bargain at £2 for the whole thing. But I knew it was too much = for us…

As I was leaving the shop with my bits of other fruit and veg, the shop assistant said to another lady…. “That water melon will end up in the bin”… with that

I rushed back in handed over 2 of my pounds and said “Give me the Watermelon”………..

So I am now the proud owner of a massive watermelon. Can you curry Watermelon?

Jas is not impressed with it, it’s nearly as big as her.

It was heavier than any weights I lifted in the gym and carrying it to the car will probably set my back injury back months :( – but I feel good that I saved it from the bin.

I will offer it to the neighbours etc. and juice it, make a movie with it as the star, play games with it, put a face on it and call it Wilson. Any how, the watermelon is loving life and is showing signs of being very grateful.

While I was at the gym I decided to educate myself with a few pod casts. I’m really getting into them now. Yesterday Tim Ferris, today motivation by Sam Crowley. Wow I really loved his light banter, his gentle way of speaking, happiness intonation in his voice !! Nice… – he was talking firstly about confidence and how to get there when you don’t have any. This is all great stuff to hear. It’s really what I bleet on about at my meet ups. Being confident is the key to achieving what you want.

I have to admit that I have a fake confidence, sometimes Ireally pretend to be confident when inside I am a jittering fool. I tend to blag it until I feel it. Sam was saying that you need to just do it and then repetition of the action decreases your resistance.

This is a “Feel the Fear and do it anyway” thing. The first time you feel the pain of it, the terror, then the second time it feels a bit better and so on until you become completely expert. He says, don’t wait to be an expert to start just go for it.

I like that.

Blog writing has given me that. Because of the challenge of banging out 100 blogs in 100 days, you don’t have the time to make sure every thing is perfect, every word the perfect word. You just do it and press publish and then whoosh – it’s out there. Warts and All.

I’m not good at reading things back (those of you who are particular about grammar and punctuation will be cringing). Sorry !!!

The word integrity he used also – It really is something to strive for. Sam described it like, if you change what you are saying or the way you are when someone enters the conversation then you are not living with integrity.

For example

Your chatting to your sister in your bedroom blah blah flipping blah, then your mum walks in…….. blah blah (with no flipping) blah continues !!! Get me??? This means maybe we don’t feel that the “Flipping” bit is showing our integrity.. We don’t need to use that word in front of our mother so is it necessary at all? An interesting point !!!

So we need to be the same regardless of who we are talking to. I’ve always thought it meant that you have a badge of honour, that you are straight talking and honest. Living with integrity as in not undermining others, living with no intention of dishonesty – you act in good faith etc.

It’s something to aspire to ….. I seem to be a bit of a flipperty gibblet sometimes.

It has given me an awareness of myself… thank goodness I’ve always said the “Not perfect” bit – I should change that to Positive – Not perfect and sometimes a complete and utter flipperty giblet !!!


Maybe we could all do with a little lesson in Integrity. I for one am going to do some Mindful Integrity days – where I will speak the same to everyone I meet. And not diss people and not be a mean old cow. Compassion and love everywhere… (except that nasty person who was slandering me !!! crikey it’s hard)….

Moving on.

The other lesson I learn’t today is not to share your ideas about your plans for work or something you would like to achieve with people who are not going to support you in this action.

If you know what it is you want. Only tell people who are going to be able to help you, support you, give you sound advice. Never tell those who don’t really want you to succeed.

Got it.

Also. You don’t have to wait until you have everything perfect in order to make a start. You don’t have to have all the right equipment. Just get on with it and progress as you journey.

Basically that’s what this blog has made me do. Think as you are going along.

Ok, don’t go in completely blind. But don’t wait. If you really want to do something..

DO IT – Gain the confidence along the way and live your life with integrity.

Love to you all

POSITIVE NOT PERFECT !! A HHHHHHHHEEEERRRRMMMMM – or positive and a flipped giblet on occasions…

OK happy now !!! lol


Author: gillfell

I am passionate about helping people achieve more out of life, I have lots of ideas and information about staying upbeat, healthy and getting what you want out of life. My mission is to help you transform your mindset so you really believe you can have the life you want. I have tried and tested techniques for you, I will help you get there and enjoy happiness along your journey.

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